Believing in the Promise of Restoration

This is such a strange place I am currently in right now.  This is a place in life I NEVER ever thought I would be, a place that has been both horrible and amazing, a place I wouldn't wish on my very worst enemy, and yet I would not have wanted to miss the blessings that I have found here.  So right now I am resting in the promise of restoration.  In fact I wanted to name this blog something along those lines, but I realized, this is but a season in life, and if I actually keep this thing up for a while, my life is going to change.  The one thing that isn't changing though is the beautiful God I serve, and so I will always and forever be believing His promises and walking the path He has set before me.  

The bible is full of promises.  I realize that if you have been a christian for any length of time you have heard that cliche seeming line before.  However it is true.  I knew it to be true, but I didn't know how applicable it was for my life, until God allowed circumstances beyond my control to force me to see those promises He has set before me in scripture.  Currently r I am resting and calling upon the promise for His restoration.  You see what has been happening in my life the past year is why I am desperately clinging to His word and taking what He says as truth. . .

For the past year my worship leader husband was having an emotional affair with his singer in the church worship band, a girl who was also in our small group, that I had grown incredibly close to, and considered a best friend.  Everything has happened in various waves that I won't take the time to rehash in this first post, but lets just say I am emotionally beat up and drained.  I am exhausted and have been to my wits end (and let me tell you, it is not a pretty picture).  I have had to keep a secret from everyone I knew and loved for a while and I have felt the burden of that.  I know what it is like to have to question every saying, motive, action, and reaction, and see if through the lens of a marriage that has now been through an emotional affair.  This is by far the hardest thing I have ever had to do, and by far the thing that has moved me more towards Christ than any other event in my life.

I have never been a part of "the messy" and honestly didn't really have a heart for people involved in it.  I couldn't understand why they would do whatever it was that they did to get themselves to such a "messy" state to begin with.  I strongly underestimated the devil and highly overestimated the ability of myself and those around me to flee from him.  The truth of the matter is that we are all messed up, for ALL have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.  But.  God.  But God shows up and gives us promises of hope, restoration, and legacy and that is more than I can ask for or deserve.  I will elaborate more on those specific promises in my next post and how they apply and encourage me today.